miss you on my way

I skimmed my msn space yesterday night. What a long time that i forget to upgrade it, I just sent some new pictures in the past a year. It is likely some reasons caused this oblivion , maybe I encountered many tough work to deal with during those days so that I had no time to pay attention to the blogs which used to be a part of my daily life. However, when I skimmed it yesterday, I was so surprised that actually there were many events occured during the last 2 years. I read the blogs one by one, which reminded me those happy and real memories again. I usually went out for fun every night such as had a dinner with my friends, saw the drama, went to the pub. Will the happy hours come back? I doubt it, unless I go back. I can show how boring the life is now. There is no air conditioner in apartment even in ctrain, there is few restaurant open after 8pm, there is little recreation here. My friends always ask the same quesiton to me: "why do you stay at home almost every day?" what am I supposed to answer it? gesus. I often ask me: is it capitalism? does my life go forth or backward? Every time my friend told me they would have a plan to travel or for some entertainment, how i envied them. Definitely i do not enjoy here, what is my immdiate plan--it is to go back home. Miss you shanghai on my way.